Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Can I Be Personal for a Moment?
I had my first cigarette when I was fourteen years old. I was probably seventeen when I developed a habit I found difficult to overcome. When I was in my twenties I quit for three years and why I started again, I can't imagine.
I quit again three years ago for six months. I'll be 59 next month and I've smoked long enough. I can't help but think my stamina would increase if I quit again. There are so many reasons I want to quit with my health being just one of them. I have a very personal reason for quitting that I won't go into here but there are other reasons as well. I hate the smell in my hair, my clothes and my apartment. I hate the fact that my teeth aren't white. No matter how hard I try, cigarette ashes just sort of drift under my ashtray.
It's 3:36 am here in southeastern Michigan, I can't sleep and have few cigarettes left. Decaf coffee is brewing and I'll drink my coffee and have my last cigarettes. I need to quit, I have to quit and I want to quit. Let's see if I still feel the same way in a few days when the most difficult part of withdrawal hits.
I'm considering spending the rest of my money so I can't buy more. Perhaps a few patterns or more fabric? Sounds like a good idea to me! LOL